My lord? My savior?

Growing up my parents took me to a Lutheran church, Good Shepherd, where I learned what was "proper" for my Christian upbringing. I was Mary in the Christmas performance of the birth of Christ, I took my first communion and still to this day have the little pin, although, I haven't touched it, let alone worn it in over five years. As I grew, I decided I no longer wanted to sit in uncomfortable pews, full of strangers that I saw once a week for years, and listen to someone tell stories about things that apparently related to life. Needless to say, I lost faith that a baby was born of a woman who had never known the touch of a man, and that he died on the cross for me.

Was Jesus a real person? Was he born and murdered? I don't know. And quite honestly it holds very little impact on me either way. All that I know is two things are necessary for conception: sperm and an egg; without either, or a medical experiment in a lab, there will be no baby. Jesus could have existed and been a wonderful person, whom did great progressive things to better the world around him, but was he God's only son, and the savior of Man? I guess that goes into my belief in God.

God- the creator of the heavens and the earth. Every science class that I have ever taken has told me that the Earth was created from the Big Bang Theory, but it's exactly that, just a theory. I'm forced to trust some scientist in an observatory somewhere that he knows what he's talking about and not just feeding me something completely plausible that has no factual evidence to support it. So, what evidence is there for the theory that God created the Earth, and all that inhabit it? About as much as there is for the other one, I would say, but I also haven't studied either to form a well informed opinion.

My only point is: we can never know 100% either way. I guess that's why they call it faith. I just seemed to have lost mine. Here's what I choose to believe though: I was put here for a purpose, what that purpose is, I haven't a clue; there is a higher power than just us mundane humans; and I was blessed with a family that supports and loves me, no matter what.